I had always thought "next time it happens, I will recognize it and go to the hospital". But I didn't do that. Why not?
Because it is so compelling. You feel like if the hive mind thought like you, humanity would reach a place of harmony. And you feel as if all you have to do is rope in an inner circle of people to spread the Good Word. On the inside, your mind is just cascading too fast over the neuronal connections. It becomes the problem of other minds again. But why my mind and not others? Is this an evolutionary advantage?
And that feeling at the peak when I was shackled to the bed. Wow. I wish I could have recorded what I saw and how I felt. It was like the end of the world was imminent and I was going to be mummified and slowly crumble while watching the world from a state of paralysis. I guess sort of like that "Treefingers" part of the novel.
Anyway... back to the old drawing board. Gotta try to hook my mind back into the project at hand. Still, putting some distance between myself and what I've done will allow me to look at it again from a more "objective view". I liked it better when I was in the zone, but at least I wrote it down and didn't lose it.
I should probably copy-paste to documents on my computer so that if something happens to my site, I don't lose everything.
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